I am Berlynn.
And I am here.

I love my bearded man.

Every heart break, trial, and frustration is bringing you one step closer to the person you were born to love.

His arms are my home.

I carry your heart with meI carry it in my heart
I am never without itAnywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling

I fear no fateFor you are my fate,my sweetI want no worldFor beautiful you are my world,my trueAnd it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knowsHere is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hideAnd this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

I carry your heartI carry it in my heart

E.E. Cummings

My mom told me to: “Find a man who respects you like a sea captain respects the sea. A man who looks at you with awe and reverence, but knows you are a force of nature.”

I’m in love. Whoops.

I met this man two years ago while he was serving a mission for the LDS church in my home town. He taught me about the gospel and the greatness of God. Not thinking anything about it at the time, I emailed Justin every week for a year and a half. He was there for me through highs and lows, heartaches and puppy loves, happiness and sadness. He was the greatest pen pal and later became my best friend. When he came home, I made sure to get his number and the pen pal relationship continued via text. Then things took a turn: I realized that this man who I had been speaking to and getting to know for almost two years was actually the man of my dreams. So…I asked him to visit me and he did. Everything was right in the world when he was with me. It was like I was regaining a part of me that had been gone for so long. His smile became my comforter and his arms became my home. Long story short, I’m in love. I’m in love with my best friend and I didn’t even know it.

He’s been my best friend for over two years. Never did I think I’d love him the way I do. The moment I realized he had my heart, it was like being able to breathe for the first time in far too long. He’s my breath of fresh air, my best friend, and my lover. I’m one lucky lady.


Sometimes you see a stranger
And something inside you clicks
It’s like some sort of magical torch
That has been randomly lit

Lit by this face
An existence that was never known
But sometimes this stranger
Makes you feel the love of home

Maybe it’s their eyes
Or the way their tousled hair lays
There’s only one thing for sure
You could stare at them for days

Days, eternity
Whichever may come last
Because this strange new face
Gives you hope separate of the past

It’s like looking into a window
Of a store you can’t afford
The hopeful beauty inside
Makes you want to work all the more

This stranger has given you hope
A desire to be challenged
The only question now
Is how will you manage

Manage to impress them
In their silent, beautiful ways
Chances are
They won’t be around for days

But that’s the thing
People are only gone when dead
And sometimes rather than disappointment
You’re offered a chance instead

Sometimes the stranger sees you too
They see your dazzled eyes
And rather than taking advantage
They see you as a prize

Sometimes the stranger sees you
Just the way you see them
You give them life
Sometimes, both parties win

Sometimes the item in the window
Is no longer the unreachable dream
There’s no longer limits
No longer a reoccurring theme

Sometimes your fears go away
And your heart begins to swell
All because you gave it a chance
Rather than saying, “Oh well”

Sometimes, when we are lucky
A stranger becomes a lover
Their days become yours
And all others look like rubble

Sometimes you fall in love with a stranger
First in the way they look
Their intoxicating smile
Has you way more than hooked

Sometimes you really fall in love
Second in the way they feel
Not in the way they touch
But the way their spirit appears

Sometimes you’re in love
Thirdly by their friendship
Never dreaming of a day that’ll go by 
When this stranger isn’t present

Sometimes your entire life is shifted
Because this stranger isn’t strange
In fact, they’re everything you’ve dreamed of
Their natural to you in every way

All it takes 
Is one moment of courage
To allow yourself to feel
And not be discouraged

Sometimes a stranger
Isn’t a stranger at all
They’ve been waiting for you too
Ready to catch you as you fall.

I try my best not to get ahead of myself in terms of relationships, but Tanner is probably the greatest man I have ever known. In all complete honesty, I have never felt like I could be my complete and true self with a significant other until he stepped into my life. It is so comforting to know that I don’t need to conform or change myself in order to fit his demands; he appreciates me for everything I am. Along side that mushy stuff, he treats me with the most respect I have ever been shown. Whether it be doors or simply respecting my heart, he is the kindest man ever! Oh, and if that wasn’t enough, he speaks sign language fluently, is a champion waltz dancer, juggles, has his own website/business, and takes beautiful photographs. And the cherry on the sundae? He loves the Lord, follows the gospel, and honors his priest hood. We’re basically the cutest little Mormon couple ever. :)I’m excited about this one. Really, really excited.